It’s 3 days post news and we’re better. Still a little shell shocked, but definitely better. It’s progress.

After talking today about various items on the check list and discussing everything at length with a couple of nurses, a doctor, Julian, and a really good friend we’ve decided to hold off on peritoneal dialysis or at least on making a firm decision about PD until we know if I can donate to Gage. And to the one person that said they didn’t want me to have to do it I thank you. I thank you for telling me it’s okay to say no to becoming Gage’s nurse for home dialysis. Why add the drama? Yes, why?

The powers that be are putting Gage on the transplant list, inactive, so he can begin to accumulate points. We’ll reevaluate if we need to change that status to active once we hear if I can donate to him. At that point we will probably still move forward to test non-related living donors.

We are beginning growth hormones. We have a Super, Dooper Nurse who is working on it diligently already. This nurse was with me when I heard the news on Wednesday that Julian couldn’t donate. SHE BOUGHT ME CANDY for goodness sakes. And she spoke calmly and nicely and I appreciate her calmness and niceness at that particular moment very much. She’s changing departments from dialysis AS OF MONDAY and is now on the transplant team (for the donor). Can we all agree that is extremely timely for me?

And how are we doing? We’re not crying as much and we’re telling jokes again. Quinn and I have some big plans this weekend. The girl needs some serious Momma time I’ll tell you that.

Remember that Life Keeps Moving comment? Well, it is moving and even though it still seems like we have the worst odds in the world we’re pretty thankful for these kids, even with their crappy kidneys. And while those kidneys have added a significant amount tears and drama and worry for us we wouldn’t trade it if it meant we’d have to give up these kids.

Gage and Quinn…making life move faster whether we want it to or not.