I have no idea if Gage is feeling better. On Monday he hit the girl in the face, on Tuesday he spent his day in the special ed room doing worksheets all day. He also had to wipe down the sinks in the girls and boys bathrooms and the lunch tables after lunch. Apparently, he didn’t like his Tuesday very much.

He had a much better Wednesday. His teacher said that a boy was aggressive with Gage, but Gage turned the other cheek. This is BIG, because if for any reason he doesn’t like something someone is doing, he has hit or kicked them. He wanted to stay in aftercare because he thinks it’s fun so that is another reward if he can keep things in check. I’m only letting him stay an hour – trying to reduce the time he can hit other kids.

Gage’s psychiatrist did call on Tuesday and gave us a get of jail free card and didn’t make us come in during the ridiculous only 2 available appointments. She said we could wait to increase the meds, currently from the very low dose, until we meet one week from tomorrow.

No.

In other words, “can you just call in the med change with the pharmacy, because I really need to get it increased earlier rather than later.” She agreed to do it and so there we are.

I have no idea if he is better. But he did have a surprising “Journal” entry tonight. He’d found a diary that Quinn had and wondered why boys don’t have them. I told him boys do have them but they probably call them Journals. “What do you write in them?” he said. “Feelings. What you are feeling. Some people think if you write things down it helps. Do you want one?”

“Yes.”

So today after school I gave him a leather journal from my stash. It’s embossed with a logo (freebie) but he doesn’t care. And tonight an hour after he went to bed I hear him yelling. I go up there, surprised he isn’t’ sleeping yet and he shows me his first journal entry. I asked him if I could read it and he said yes. He can’t spell at all, but it didn’t matter. I read it aloud and knew exactly what he was saying. He drew a couple of pictures for me too.

I don’t know if he feels better. But the journal entry indicates something. I know this because it is titled “Feligs” (Feelings. Or my translation: It’s something.)