Why?

I write this as I sit in the radiology waiting room. I don’t enjoy waits of any length. I have no patience. None at all. But I sit here & I know why I sit here waiting, without a doubt, no matter how many times they assure me that I can back out at any time. I will not.

I am typically a person of decision. I have no process that I go through, no analysis. I look at the situation & the answer is already there. I don’t ever remember making a conscious decision to donate a kidney to Quinn. It was something that when the request went out, I just knew, – that was what I would do (although at the time I thought it would be Gage). I’ve never doubted my decision for a second, if it was a decision.

I mean, most of you know the Roberts – who wouldn’t want to help, if they could? And I know all of you Internet Peoples (as Quinn calls us) have already helped in countless ways. And you’ve included me & Quinn in your love, prayers & good karma wishes. For this I can’t thank you enough, because at the end of the day the only thing that is important is – that Quinn gets a transplant & a chance at healthy life. A life where she gets that first kiss, goes to the prom in a spectacular dress (one with lots of bling for our Quinn!). A life where she gets to hang out with the girls at the beach, drive her mom’ second or third hand Volvo & run & play & dance.

But in the end, I want to donate for only one reason & one reason only – I love Quinn. I love Julia, Julian & Gage. And to all the Emory doctors, CHOA doctors, social workers, nephrologists, psychiatrists, transplant coordinators, I know you have to ask me the same question over & over again: “Why do you want to donate to Quinn?” And this is my final & best offer & it is enough – love.

So I sit patiently (patient as I can be), because as a good friend reminded me recently, doesn’t it all come down to one thing anyway?

Love is Patient

Love is Kind

I Corinthians 13:4a

And that is why.